How Dare You!

How dare you!
How dare you leave!
How dare you go without saying goodbye?
You didn't fight, did you?
You said yes and walked off to the horizon,
How dare you.




They said I was going to be okay,
They said with time the pain would go away,
They said so many things,
I had hopes in them.
That it would be okay.
But it has never been okay.

I want to talk.
I am wrecked.
But you left.
How am I ever gonna be okay.




Are you happy?
Do you think of me?
Do you wish you could come back?
Do you miss us?
But you went away!
How dare you.


Why is the pain still fresh,
Why am I stuck in the past?
Why are your memories so fresh?
Why am I crying?
I miss you.

I am mad at you!
I am mad at myself!
I am not ready to let go.
It has been too long but I am still standing where you left me.




I want to say goodbye.
Should I let go, should I walk away?
Should we finally part?
Is this it?



No! I don't want to!
I am not going to ever forget you.
I don't want to get over you.
I miss you, I always will.
Why did you go?
How dare you go!

Withered Flower.

As I watch it flowing down my hand,
I look at the pictures on the wall.
Of happier times.
Of the us that I thought existed.
Of the lies, love, joy...now gone.



I cut...
I remember what we had, and cut some more...



Blood is worth shedding,
Tears don't express the pain I feel.

Blood reminds me of our commitment.
Blood reminds me that nothing lasts.
Blood reminds me of pain...of you.

I sniff....

Who are you?
Who am I?
Who are we? We?
I wanna drown this pain in my own blood.

I take more vodka...
I sniff....



You walk in as I drown myself in pain,
You look at me with disgust,
You walk past me without saying a word.
You despise my love.

I cut some more..

You get your stuff from our room,
There is nothing that is ours anymore..

We are two islands now.

You don't want my love,
You walk past me...
You don't look at me.

I cut some more... I drink more vodka... I sniff some more...

You are gone without saying goodbye
I am dead to you.
You introduced me to these drugs.
Now I am ruined, you don't care anymore.
I am a withered flower.... in your vase.

Jodieandyou - Kuchi Kuchi (Oh Baby)

Every Mother will relate to this.... and anybody who loves babies basically.

Happy Valentine's Day.

This song says it all.

Smile On the Outside

Pain disaster constant friends,
Sadness every day a friend
Acquaintances very many
They'll never understand
Smiles on the outside
Storms inside

A chance meeting
My mission was bed
Got dragged out instead
Curses on my breath
Smiles on the outside
Storms inside

She cursed when she saw me
I was oblivious but lonely
She seemed determined
I had no expectations
Smiles on the outside
Storms inside

Now I'm lighter
Birds singing no longer a nuisance
Staring at my phone
Red blinking awaiting
Smiles on the outside
Clouds are lifting

In her eyes she's damaged
In mine she's perfect
She inspires the sunrise
Her smile the sunshine
Smiles on the outside
Days are perfect.

(This piece was not written by me. It is the work of a poet who prefers not to be mentioned, yet.)